Post by meimei on Oct 6, 2005 14:33:32 GMT 7
[glow=blue,2,300]LEAVING WITH THE RAIN[/glow]
two hours has passed but you're still left there staring at a blank paper. huh! it's not really that easy to start an article about something which has just ended.
where are you going to start?
at the beginning? can you still remember how it started? not? eventhough how magical it is, it would still be forgotten, it would still lost its meaning because of that sad ending. bringing the past back would only bring good only if there would be a tomorrow which will take all the worries and sadness away. coz if there's none, the only thing tomorrow could bring is to bring back all the sadness of that ending.
now, better start with the reason. no it can't be. what you're holding on will only be who, what, when and where. there would be no chance for 'why'. there are things in this world which you can't really understand eventhough how hard you try to. or maybe, the answer is just right there in front of you and you just refuse to believe it, trying to set aside the questions bothering you.
you can't blame yourself. it's really hard to accept the fact that during those days when you experienced happiness are also those days when you were actually fooling yourself.
if so, why not start with the rain? the rain which you never really wished for and came at the time you least expect it. the rain which showed you that you can look up the sky and stand at your feet, while letting yourself getting drowned by the heavy rain.
right. with the rain. you were changed by the rain.
it made you realize that people may come and go in your life any time they please. you can't do anything. you just can't force them to stay. you can't stop them if they wanna leave. and the rain would stop without telling you when.
what's left behind would only be you......and a space.
misery does not start with leaving, but with goodbye. the only person you cared the most may say goodbye without leaving but he may also leave even without saying goodbye. bit by bit. slowly. life goes on with him, while with you, pieces of that goodbye comes to you each and every new day.
there are times when you can't help but wish that it would be better if it has been stopped at the point when everything has just started. so there won't be any hidden text messages to delete, no special moments to be left behind and no space to be deepen by that misery.
it's so tiring to wait for the time to come for that emptiness to be filled which only you could feel. and it would be easy for you to fill that emptiness with hatred.
but you won't let it happen. you would just let those tears to fall and let the last raindrop fall in your face. which ever would be the first to be over, you will still be left there standing at your feet.
waiting. hoping.
because eventhough you mean nothing to him, he will still be someone important to you...
;D
two hours has passed but you're still left there staring at a blank paper. huh! it's not really that easy to start an article about something which has just ended.
where are you going to start?
at the beginning? can you still remember how it started? not? eventhough how magical it is, it would still be forgotten, it would still lost its meaning because of that sad ending. bringing the past back would only bring good only if there would be a tomorrow which will take all the worries and sadness away. coz if there's none, the only thing tomorrow could bring is to bring back all the sadness of that ending.
now, better start with the reason. no it can't be. what you're holding on will only be who, what, when and where. there would be no chance for 'why'. there are things in this world which you can't really understand eventhough how hard you try to. or maybe, the answer is just right there in front of you and you just refuse to believe it, trying to set aside the questions bothering you.
you can't blame yourself. it's really hard to accept the fact that during those days when you experienced happiness are also those days when you were actually fooling yourself.
if so, why not start with the rain? the rain which you never really wished for and came at the time you least expect it. the rain which showed you that you can look up the sky and stand at your feet, while letting yourself getting drowned by the heavy rain.
right. with the rain. you were changed by the rain.
it made you realize that people may come and go in your life any time they please. you can't do anything. you just can't force them to stay. you can't stop them if they wanna leave. and the rain would stop without telling you when.
what's left behind would only be you......and a space.
misery does not start with leaving, but with goodbye. the only person you cared the most may say goodbye without leaving but he may also leave even without saying goodbye. bit by bit. slowly. life goes on with him, while with you, pieces of that goodbye comes to you each and every new day.
there are times when you can't help but wish that it would be better if it has been stopped at the point when everything has just started. so there won't be any hidden text messages to delete, no special moments to be left behind and no space to be deepen by that misery.
it's so tiring to wait for the time to come for that emptiness to be filled which only you could feel. and it would be easy for you to fill that emptiness with hatred.
but you won't let it happen. you would just let those tears to fall and let the last raindrop fall in your face. which ever would be the first to be over, you will still be left there standing at your feet.
waiting. hoping.
because eventhough you mean nothing to him, he will still be someone important to you...
;D