meimei
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Post by meimei on Sept 29, 2005 16:21:57 GMT 7
i frantically create a mask to hide behind, a nonchalant sophisticated facade to help me pretend, to shield me from the glance that knows. but such a glance is precisely my salvation, and i knew it. that is, if it is followed by acceptance, if it is followed by love. it's the only that will assure me of what i can't assure myself, [glow=red,2,300]THAT I AM WORTH SOMETHING..[/glow]so i play my game, my desperate game with a facade of assurance. and so i begin the parade of my mask and my life becomes a play. i idly chatter to you in the suave tones of surface.
this is my life, my game for which i play the hide-and-seek, desperately playing my game to seek for security behind doubts, not the reality with discontentment.
i dislike hiding. honest!
i dislike the superficial games i am playing ---- this phony game. id really like to be genuine and spontaneous and be me.... but you've got to help me. only you can wipe away from my eyes the blank stares of breathing death. only you can make me alive. if only life could be better that i don't have to hide. i don't want to steal the reality just to show you something untrue....
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